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blinkstar22 @ 2006-01-20T18:39:00

2006-01-21T02:41:35Z

i hate the city. its starting to drain me. i want to move back to the country where i belong. i was never cut out for this high stress, fast paced go go go lifestyle. i need space, i need fresh air and trees and grass and fresh water. *sigh* daaniël and i have agreed that as soon as we can, we are leaving the portland area and going somewhere better. i miss the country.

mmm food

2006-01-19T00:07:25Z

i <3 paula dean

i wish she was my mom so she could cook for me all the time...

sick

2006-01-10T22:43:40Z

hmm...i havnt eaten in 2 days....no wonder ive lost 20+ lbs....

im going to subway and not going to school today! yay!

blinkstar22 @ 2005-12-19T16:36:00

2005-12-20T00:39:58Z

I am out of a job as of wednsday, Daaniël is out of a job as of jan 1st....this sucks. but we played in the snow in downtown portland today. we had a snowball fight outside his office building, then made out and got teased by one of his co-workers. its kinda amazing how happy i am right now. it reasures me that this is where i am supposed to be. i couldnt be happier.

blinkstar22 @ 2005-12-13T16:10:00

2005-12-14T00:11:07Z

i just found out that david was going to propose to me soon. it was really on his mind when i broke up with him...talk about a stab in the heart....

blinkstar22 @ 2005-12-01T16:09:00

2005-12-02T00:12:33Z

i just came to the realization that i no longer have any friends. david told me straight to my face that he hates me, and so does just about everyone else i thought of as a friend. i dont know how i feel about this really....

so, if you hate me, please let me know so i dont hang onto the false notion that i may still have one or two people that care.

*wait* malcolm is still my friend...so theres 1, plus daaniël (not really a friend but whatever) so theres 2. wooo 2 whole friends. i am the luckiest girl in the world.

what the hell..

2005-11-30T03:59:55Z

i just saw this comercial on tv for this kids laptop thing
there were all these 'cool' kids dancing around to cool music with the laptop while the announcer says 'now the smart kids and the cool kids are one in the same'
so the kids continue to dance, and then the announcer says "smart is in"

does this bug anyone else? since when has being smart been not cool? i dunno, it just seems that emphasis is more on being fashionable and poplular anymore than actually learning. but i guess that education isnt important anymore....gives a great message to kids dont you think?

blinkstar22 @ 2005-11-28T12:48:00

2005-11-28T20:49:22Z

this is my new kitten Tack and i love her...so should you

blinkstar22 @ 2005-11-15T09:26:00

2005-11-15T17:26:44Z

*waves bye to vancouver*

see ya'll around sometime...im outa here!

blinkstar22 @ 2005-11-10T18:29:00

2005-11-11T02:29:19Z

*packing away*

blinkstar22 @ 2005-11-07T13:34:00

2005-11-07T21:42:26Z

yesterday....

slept all day then went to work at 5, to find out my schedual was changed without anyone telling me, so i missed my shift at 10 that morning ><, but i stayed cause i told my boss no one told me...then i drive home to find out that my kitty, who i have had for 12+ years died...she was my baby, i am soooo sad... then my mother gave me the silent treatment all night for who knows what reason. when she finally did start talking to me, she said that doug doesnt believe that she is going to leave, so she is going to be out of here by the 1st of the year, and i am going to be out of here after this quarter is over. *sigh* plus david is being a total bitch and causing drama on our forums. all the sudden he wont talk to me and is having this total attitude...so that leads me to just say fuck him..if he wants to be a bitch go ahead, dont hurt me none. i just want my stuff back that he took from me.

i need:
new tires
oil change
new brakes
new wipers
coffee table
entertainment center
microwave
transmission flush
boxes
food *tummy rumbles*

just about anything else you could think of...
yay for getting a credit card. my plan is to buy new tires, breaks, wipers and all that stuff and get them all paid off before my 6 month 0% intrest runs out.

i wish stuff didnt cost money =/ this sucks....

yay the cost of being independant!

blinkstar22 @ 2005-11-03T17:55:00

2005-11-04T01:59:48Z

i am moving at the end of the month...and i need stuff for my appartment, as of right now its pretty empty..

does anyone have any of the following/know someone who wants to get rid of them? i'll pay, but hopefully cheep!

coffee table
end table
entertainment center
tea pot
glass mixing bowls
lamps
any cool art for the walls

basicly anything for an appartment....

anything helps guys! help out a poor college student please!
leave a message or email me theladyhotshot@gmail.com

thanks!

good news!

2005-11-01T06:32:22Z

my mom FINALLY told my stepdad she wanted a divorce, so she and my brother are going to get an apartment somewhere and i am going to be living with daaniël....this feels very strange, havnt been through a divorce since i was 5....i dont remember what it was like...oh well, its all good...

so that means im going to be moving to hillsboro in a few months, new address, new job new phone number the works...

/happy dance

blinkstar22 @ 2005-10-31T00:43:00

2005-10-31T08:56:16Z

i spent all weekend in days creek oregon, some place thats not even a real town in the middle of s oregon, with my boyfriend and his awsome mom, and spastic but fun 8 year old sister, their 30 some odd cats, 6 dogs, 4 horses, 8+ goats, 5 parrots, a lizard, 4 acres and a hot tub. it was one of the best places i have ever been too...friday night we got there and just crashed, saturday was jennis birthday, and a soccer game. daaniël, me and his mom drove around myrtle creek for an hour trying to find a)a liquor store, and b) some mud to play with in their jeep. then we stayed up late and went in the hot tub at like 1 am...daan makes the BEST white russians..omg i wanted like...10 of them, but he makes them very strong, hehehe...mmmmmm alcohol....then his mom went to bed and we made out in the hot tub for awhile. *sex is very difficult in the hot tub* went to bed...woke up this morning at like 11, started working on the car, drinkin our bacardis, then going out in the jeep again to "play" in the mud... imagine if this / was a hill....the jeep was going up it..wow... and daaniël didnt get it stuck once...i was so proud...then around 8 we started to go home, but right outside myrtle creek, we got pulled over, and turns out when daan got his licence renewed about a year ago, it was never proccesed so he has been driving without a licence the whole time..so i had to drive the 250 miles home, and i have never driven stick before..so it was interesting...

*moral of the story*
i am so in love with this geek/country boy. he is the perfect mix of everything i ever wanted...i just still cant get over it. besides, gotta love a boy who takes his girlfriend, mom, and little sister out puddle jumpin for 2 hours! (couldnt see the jeep under the mud afterwords)

this weekend rocked...

i got a job!

2005-10-24T20:11:29Z

if you want to visit me, i work in jewelery at Meier and Frank in Lloyd center....

please help!

2005-10-18T08:27:22Z

i need a list of those sappy love songs from the 90s.... example goo goo dolls - iris, or lifehouse - hanging by a moment....ANYTHING you can think of is awsome! thanks guys!

this is how i spent the weekend....

2005-10-17T06:48:35Z

job interviews, driving, 'the big brother talk' lots of nakedness and lots of.......

and

and

and most importantly....

^ jerk.....

it was a great weekend with my boy Daaniël, went up with my to meet my dad and shawn, and drive around the country and be bored with me all weekend. i am so in love with him..and, god damn he is sexy ;)

for anyone who cares

2005-09-28T03:57:24Z

david and i are taking a break....i dont know if it is permenant yet or not.....but its all i can do right now....i have fallen for some one else, and to avoid more heartbreak in the future, this is what i have to do....

blinkstar22 @ 2005-09-24T14:39:00

2005-09-24T21:39:17Z

a 14 year friendship lost over "he said, she said" bull shit. go figgure that one...

blinkstar22 @ 2005-05-01T23:00:00

2005-05-02T05:58:55Z

i dont know what i am updating about....

blinkstar22 @ 2005-04-24T01:13:00

2005-04-24T08:11:10Z

kung fu hustle is my new favorite movie...no joke

blinkstar22 @ 2005-02-08T22:32:00

2005-02-09T06:36:25Z

i just found out what my graduation present is...

i am going to the east coast to spend a month with my rich and very awsome uncle and super cool aunt, and then going to DC to spend time with my cousin who is the personal assistant to the senator of Virginia...

gotta love my very republican, very conservative family...

but i just dont know if i can make it a month without dave, i know that sounds really pathetic, but i just dont think that my heart can stand to be away from him for a month, so he said he is going to save up and go with me...if he doesnt get to go...i dont know what i will do. go and be miserable while having an awsome time i guess...

PS.....CHICAGO NEXT WEEKEND!!!!

i am scared to fly that far being a total pessimist about things i can only think of the worst thing that can happen. all i want is to come home safe and be warm in his arms forever....

anaversary + valentines day on the same weekend= awsome

blinkstar22 @ 2005-02-01T17:17:00

2005-02-02T01:15:11Z

wtf was kira hamer doing on my couch with my brother when i got home?

i would really like to know.....

blinkstar22 @ 2005-01-21T22:28:00

2005-01-22T06:31:06Z

k so i just got back from the play...it was ok, but of course me being an expert on the subject noticed some flaws...its ok the energy was awsome haha. so like...i was talking with robert and allie and allie was telling me that robert missed me in drama and he was like...why arent you here anymore!!! omg everybody misses me which is weird but awsome right.

I MISS DRAMA!!!!

(except for that stupid ass of an old man...)

i miss alot of things...i dont know, i guess...i dont know. i need to stop being such a shut in sometimes. i was asked why i stopped talking to everybody right?

i have no answer...i just...i guess i find it easier not to. i dont know i have some problems i need to work out..

all that matters is im happy right?

raise your hand if you want an arcade in vancouver!!!

blinkstar22 @ 2005-01-13T22:28:00

2005-01-14T06:27:51Z

omg dave matthews makes me hot